10 years before and after

Times Square
Times Square

I went to see an old friend today at Times square. This friend of mine is a physician/anesthesiologist in the Philippines. He was my Biochemistry professor and one of the revered figures in the Medical School I went to.  He is a cool guy and me and my friends admired him as a teacher and friend.

It was y amusing to see him here in NYC after a decade. I can’t believe it has been that long. I have’nt spoken to him in 10 years since he left the country and I’ve always wondered what happened to him. It was just today I found out why he left for the USA. He seem to be doing well here though and has no regrets of turning his back on a promising and respectable career in the Philippines, for what was then (10 years ago) an uncertain future here in the US. He followed his heart and he seem really happy.

He then asked me what happened after he left. He asked how my friends are doing, what they pursued after Medical school or if they finished medical school at all. It was an interesting conversation because after I told him that I veered from the original plan, I realized that I am also very happy with what i did with my life.

Just like my friend, I also turned my back on what could have been a “remarkable” profession. Not just that, I lost whatever inheritance I could get from my mother because I opted to be “free”. I knew I could regret that move but I told myself that I would rather blame myself for my decision than blame someone else for my unhappiness because I let them make the decisions for me.

I wont say I’m living on top of the world now but I am content and having fun. I am where I am supposed to be. I am the way I am, because of the experience, knowledge I acquired by growing up and standing up for myself and pursuing what makes me happy.

In the end, it’s all about taking that risk.

Life is too short to waste one day to be unhappy… or to be in a situation where I long to be somewhere else, or be with someone else.

10 years after today, I want to say again ”  I would rather blame myself for my decision than blame someone else for my unhappiness because I let them make the decisions for me.” in short, my happiness and success is UP TO ME.

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